[ It may not necessarily be true that he trusts her - he offers her some measure of it, some understanding that she doesn't yet intend to kill him, that his machinations to earn her trust and favour had worked. The same song and dance of his body being used to earn safety isn't something he'd ever be comfortable discussing aloud, but it had worked here - even as he now wishes that it might not have. His genuine affection for her is growing, and his heart feels a touch heavy for it.
Her body is warm beside him, a stark contrast to his own cool skin, and when she leans close he feels... Happy. It's wretched.
Their quiet moments are that - quiet, and tender, and almost romantic, if one ignores the impending doom and the danger that comes hand in hand with it, the knowledge that if they're not swift nor careful then the tadpoles rolling around in their brains might take control and transform them into hideous beasts. Not only is he far too pretty for that, but he is too busy enjoying his newfound freedom: he doesn't want to lose it now.
Turning his head, his lips twitch into a smile. ]
I think the night brings it out in me. It's familiar territory.
[ His hand lifts, stroking gently through her hair. ]
[ and yet, in stark contrast, she trusts him almost implicitly. he had been one of the first she had encountered upon waking up on that shore, one of the first who had looked at her and not seen her red skin, pointed teeth, or horns decorating her forehead. maybe it was his machinations that made her so inclined to trust him, to keep him at her side even as his true nature had been revealed. or maybe it was because he did not look at her with as much expectation as some of the others did.
she can relax in his company, she can breathe in his company, and let her guard drop just enough for him to slip in.
there is a part of her, as terrible as the thought is, that is almost glad for the tadpoles rolling around their brains although not for the reason most would think. it's selfish and foolish, but without the little bastards what were the chances that any of them would have crossed paths? they would not have these quiet moments, he would not have the chance to stand and bask in the morning sun, and she ─
the hand in her hair drags dessa from her thoughts, tail twitching slightly beside her as she hums again, leaning into the touch. ]
Familiar territory, is it? Are you to say you lounged under the night sky those first few nights instead of skulking about?
[ her voice is teasing, amber gaze glittering with obvious amusement, and she curls fingers around his wrist to bring it down to the side of her face. ]
[ It's said fondly enough, at least, and there's no heat behind Astarion's words. He enjoys the gentle nudge of teasing her with his words, at drawing it out and allowing them to banter with one another, and it's nice after years of not being able to say anything for fear of retribution. His heart had felt heavy for such a long time, but now... Now he feels much better about the situation. He can allow himself that, to settle into comfort.
She leans into him, and Astarion lets himself smile, coyly. For her, he can be softer. He is beginning to mean it, too.
Careful fingers brush over the shape of her face, teasing out the familiar pathways as he cups her skin and allows himself the chance to indulge. She is a wonder, he tells himself that often, and the way he is beginning to feel safe, and loved, and wanted... It's alarming, how accustomed he could get to it. ]
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Her body is warm beside him, a stark contrast to his own cool skin, and when she leans close he feels... Happy. It's wretched.
Their quiet moments are that - quiet, and tender, and almost romantic, if one ignores the impending doom and the danger that comes hand in hand with it, the knowledge that if they're not swift nor careful then the tadpoles rolling around in their brains might take control and transform them into hideous beasts. Not only is he far too pretty for that, but he is too busy enjoying his newfound freedom: he doesn't want to lose it now.
Turning his head, his lips twitch into a smile. ]
I think the night brings it out in me. It's familiar territory.
[ His hand lifts, stroking gently through her hair. ]
Comfortable.
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she can relax in his company, she can breathe in his company, and let her guard drop just enough for him to slip in.
there is a part of her, as terrible as the thought is, that is almost glad for the tadpoles rolling around their brains although not for the reason most would think. it's selfish and foolish, but without the little bastards what were the chances that any of them would have crossed paths? they would not have these quiet moments, he would not have the chance to stand and bask in the morning sun, and she ─
the hand in her hair drags dessa from her thoughts, tail twitching slightly beside her as she hums again, leaning into the touch. ]
Familiar territory, is it? Are you to say you lounged under the night sky those first few nights instead of skulking about?
[ her voice is teasing, amber gaze glittering with obvious amusement, and she curls fingers around his wrist to bring it down to the side of her face. ]
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[ It's said fondly enough, at least, and there's no heat behind Astarion's words. He enjoys the gentle nudge of teasing her with his words, at drawing it out and allowing them to banter with one another, and it's nice after years of not being able to say anything for fear of retribution. His heart had felt heavy for such a long time, but now... Now he feels much better about the situation. He can allow himself that, to settle into comfort.
She leans into him, and Astarion lets himself smile, coyly. For her, he can be softer. He is beginning to mean it, too.
Careful fingers brush over the shape of her face, teasing out the familiar pathways as he cups her skin and allows himself the chance to indulge. She is a wonder, he tells himself that often, and the way he is beginning to feel safe, and loved, and wanted... It's alarming, how accustomed he could get to it. ]
And I don't need to do it any more.